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Howdy ppl! I'm gradually loosening my grip on the nozzle. (Of what, I dunno.) I can feel it. Hope that this isn't a knee-jerk reaction. Perhaps it is, perhaps it's not, oh why bother? Haha. I'm tired... *yawns* Ho's gonna ask us if we are ready for FYP next week. Oh whatevers-up-there, please gimme a sign. Haha. Deepavali and Hari Raya coming up next week, so to all my indian and muslim friends, Happy Deepavali and Selamat Hari Raya!~ To the muslims especially, "I'm looking forward to eating with you in the day again! Haha." Just changed my Video browser to a very cool and sleek black skin, just fit in snugly with my blog template as well. Cheers!~ Cya people. "Who has to know? Those stuffs I can't deny. I admit . I confess ."

Leftovers from drafts I tried to combine during the week: October's almost gone in a glance... So much time gone, so little done. Or is it just me? Ha. Very soon the new semester will be upon us and the rollercoaster ride of education would start for me again. Got back my results. Avoided Cs but no As for me this time, just one distinction to be happy about. Anyway, I'm having 2nd thoughts of not going to Uni. Suddenly felt that, because of my very puny amount of knowledge regarding going Uni via you-know-what, is causing me to feel this way. Ahh. What's the fuss. Things will most probably straighten itself out soon enough. *Shakes head violently and stomps feet to some techno/trance/hard metal rhythm* Here's the ranting from today... New Blog skin... "How? How? How!? Nice!?" *mimics some chirpy teenage girl's voice. Finally, about a year into the opening of this blog, I finally gave it a makeover. Or shld I say, I finally copied some html codes and modifi...

Another walk on the tightrope. Another punch on the face. Another cut on that flawless skin. How long could this possibly last? It was selfish. It was appalling. But it was raw. Feeling more and more upset as hours ticked by God knows if you felt the same way too Maybe I shouldn't have asked. Maybe you shouldn't have told me. I'm too afraid of what lies ahead. But I don't want you gone. Shame is all that I could felt. Sorry is all that I could muster. Signed, Deepest realm inside of me.

Another restless day. Another day spent in loneliness. Another day of wild imagination. Can I just not be Myself for a day? It's been hard. What is this? Heard you ain't got a girlfriend. Yea. So? When are you getting one? I wished I knew the answer. That is sad. I'm getting desperate. Trouble is, I'm letting the whole world know about it. Haha. Foolish thoughts stashed in my brain all day, just like the dollar bills neatly arranged in those briefcases we see in the movies. Question: Do you like being Single? Answer: Yea, I do. -BUT- I rather come in a pair. 2 heads are better than 1. Take my brain out from my skull now, its most probably fried. I can't think of anything else. I can't concentrate. I'm just reading books furiously, seeking refuge in another world, cos I am so afraid to face reality. Looking at the time I spent on books each day, you would have thought I ate books for lunch for the past 19 years of my life. Whatever that's up there... I ...

Ain't got a clue what went through my head when I took this. Guess I ain't got a clue with just about everything in my life.

Yet another week draws to a close... FYP more or less into the midst of the things... that's the good part, the bad part is that the various inputs that we required for the project are somehow rather difficult to implement... not that we din anticipate this part though. Weekend pool session was brought forward to yesterday, and I spent a large chunk of time inside there wasting money and time... just hope that this won't come back to haunt me in the future, for slacking so much... After that went to have dinner with Jack, while Iz went to try out Albert's rented Subaru. Went to West Mall after leaving Beauty World... and walked around the Central and finally the Mall. Been a long time since I'm out walking around busy areas alone. (Most of the time nowadays, I'm either at school or at home alone facing this dumb box.) Picture this sight, a 1.75m guy with unkempt hair and his half-rimmed specs, wearing a bright orange tee and a light brown bermuda, strolling around i...

Ever felt... Like you're cracking up? A period of time whereby you just don't feel like doing anything else but sit down in a spot and think and think and think and ponder about stuffs that probably wouldn't happen at all? Staying up late at night and watching the same love movies on TV again and again, even though you know the ending having watched it just days earlier? Indulging in a very bad habit that slowly shreds away whatever remainder of your self-integrity, self-respect and morality? Felt like letting everything just go in public, just snap infront of people whom you know, and just go practically and literally all bonkers? I do.

Woot! Just remembered that I haven't been here for quite a number of days already. FYP's been on my mind all the way... The day before yesterday was the most horrible I had endured in the whole FYP thingy so far. Always anticipating the worst before meeting the project supervisor, YET when we finally meet up, it was nothing as bad as I had imagined. Haha. Moving on, we went to watch the movie, GOAL! Haha. A rather nice dreamy movie which kinda reminds you of being a 2 hour long advert for Adidas (though it's not asif I'm bothered by it.) Quite interesting to see the places from Newcastle, England. Especially the big river running through their city and with it, the many bridges, each with their own design and style. It had me thinking what if one day I were to migrate to England... Migrate!? Did I just said that? Omg... !XOBILE (heehaw) Perhaps it was just the movie painting such a nice scenic picture of England. I don't think I would ever end up in other countries ...

Your Birthdate: September 21 Being born on the 21st day of the month (3 energy) is likely to add a good bit of vitality to your life. The energy of 3 allows you bounce back rapidly from setbacks, physical or mental. There is a restlessness in your nature, but you seem to be able to portray an easygoing, "couldn't care less" attitude. You have a natural ability to express yourself in public, and you always make a very good impression. Good with words, you excel in writing, speaking, and possibly singing. You are energetic and always a good conversationalist. You have a keen imagination, but you tend to scatter your energies and become involved with too may superficial matters. Your mind is practical and rational despite this tendency to jump about. You are affectionate and loving, but very sensitive. You are subject to rapid ups and downs. What Does Your Birth Date Mean? The Keys to Your Heart You are attracted to those who have a split personality - cold as ice on the out...

I'm like treating my blog as if it is some treasure chest or something, keep coming back and updating it.. wahaha.. yet another test... Hmm, the test results seems to be quite true wahaha. I dunno. Perhaps I'm just a no hoper... lol. "The self-esteem is getting lower and lower, what is happening to me ?" -------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Very Stable You scored 22 paranioa, 43 openness, and 90 self awareness! You are aware of what you feel even though you might not feel like sharing everything with your partner. You also are very trusting in your partner and confident in your relationship. Your relationships will be very stable. My test tracked 3 variables How you compared to other people your age and gender: You scored higher than 69% on paranioa You scored higher than 29% on openness You scored higher than 56% on self awareness The How Emotionaly Stable Are You Testhttp://www.okcupid.com/tests/take?testid=851599027...

Day 4... Din really do much today in school... practically went to school to waste the electricity and air-con there. Nothing to allay my fears at all. Haha. Oh well, at least we should be getting our long-awaited EEPROM tomorrow. That's a plus amid all the negatives.... Had a knack of picking off and looping songs continually from wherever I went for the past 3 days, Haha. 1st it was Crowded House's Don't Dream It's Over, then it was Robbie William's Tripping, followed by a long time chinese classic by Wu Qi Xian, Tai Sha. Today it was Jackie Chan and Kim's Endless Love from The Myth... Just felt like posting that song's lyrics here complete with translation... =) 成龙 (J.C.) ： 解开我 最神秘的等待 jie kai wo zui shen mi de deng dai Release me from this mysterious waiting 星星坠落 风在吹动 xing xing zhui luo feng zai chui dong The stars are falling; the wind is blowing. 终于再将你拥入怀中 zhong yu zai jiang ni yong ru huai zhong Finally I can hold you in my arms. 两颗星颤抖 liang ke xin cha...

Day 2 into my FYP rush... I'm already starting to feel really tired having to wake up early (even just for 2 days! LOL) haha. But at least I guess there is progress finally. My brain's stuck in 15 inches of thick imaginary snow... so, Cya. "再说你也不会懂, 心再痛你能做什么, 不再将自己深锁错了又错..."

The Boy Next Door R andom G entle L ove D reamer ( RGLDm ) Kind, yearning, playful, you are The Boy Next Door . You're looking for real Love, a lot like girls do. It might not be manly, but it's sweet. We think the next three years will be very exciting and fruitful ones for you. Your spontaneous, creative side makes you a charming date, and we think you have a horny side just waiting to shine. Or glisten, rather. You enter new relationships unusually hopeful, and the first moments are especially glorious. If you've had some things not work out before, so what. On paper, most girls would name the Boy Next Door as their ideal mate. In the real world, however, you're often passed over for more dangerous or masculine men. You're the typical "nice guy:" without just a touch of cockiness, you're doomed with girls. A shoulder to cry on? Okay, sure. But never a penis to hold. More than any other type, Boys Next Door evolve as they get ol...

Yippeee Yahhoooo! Exams over! I'm happy~! Haha.. I guess the above tells it's own story already. Parents' been away for almost 6 days now... My 'ordeal' being at home alone is almost over... (Haha.. I wished it could last longer =x) The whole week home alone has been a blast. I got used to coming home to an empty house at night, and staying up late alone till the wee hours... with no one to nag me in the ears or keep an eye on me. Haha. I was still panicking ahead of this week, what might happen if I couldn't handle the 'being alone and helpless' bullshit, but well, so far so good! It was as if I embraced this sort of independence with both hands! Haha... This was as close to ideal as the ideal life I want. Just to let you know, I want to be a typical Yuppie if possible, with my own apartment, a games room with my very own pool table, a small kitchen for me to cook food for my guests, and finally a living room with a projecter screen as my TV and a comfy...