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To My G.G.G

I had an compulsion to pour out everything I felt at this moment in time.

I am so sorry for spoiling your day yesterday. I given my explanation but I maybe didnt reveal my feelings too much.

I truly adore you.

I LOVE YOU.

I remember worrying about you every single day when we are apart.
I panic whenever you fail to reply my SMS-es immediately.
When you were down, I felt my day went bad as well.
When I am down, you did your best to raise my spirits, giving a shoulder for me to rest on.
The times when we waited for each other to come home; come online; calls from each other... The times you held my hand and you said you wanna bring them home with you...

I missed the walks we had down the river, the jogs we had down the beach, the books we read together in the libraries, the movies we watched together in the cinemas, the stroll in the parks, the clueless wandering of places where we didn't plan, the meals we had together, the time we spent looking into each other's eyes, the little chats we shared throughout...

I looked upon you as the other half that I been looking for all along. Its unfortunate, almost ridiculous how it ended. It's my choice probably because I'm timid. I always said that you are a scare-dy cat... but perhaps now you can have the last laugh.

Already I feel a tinge of regret. I dunno how to eradicate this bad feeling. Maybe time will wash away all these. With time, we might lose contact and we will only think back of each other as just another person who left footprints in our lives.

You deserved better. Someone who will love you and take care of you more capably than me. Someone who wont be away on the seas and bonded to some organisation.

It hurts badly as I recount every single experience we went through.

I wish that I had the solution to all these.
I wish I could wake up from this nightmare.

It's gonna be so lonely from now on.

No more dates to look forward to.
No more messages to my phone everyday.
No more meanings to be found in my weekends.
My world revolved around you and it just stopped spinning.

Can I still turn to you if I'm all down and out?
The tears aren't drying up just yet....

Love,
B.B.B

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