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Today, I finally found the words I want to say it out but never could... I was chatting to YZ, and the following words just sorta tumbled out...

YZ: whether things remain the same or become worse or become better....it depends on a few factors one of which is yurself
Me: im so confused... im like waiting for something to happen
Me: and i know it wun..
YZ: ahhh....
Me: things like
Me: one fine day...my parents turned up and say to me.. "youre allowed to marry a muslim girl"
Me: or walla! one day i woke up and found myself with darker skin and in a muslim home
Me: OR... she woke up and found herself with brighter skin and in a chinese home
Me: things like that never did happen.. never happen... never will in the future.
YZ: .....
Me: ok apart from 1st one.. it might in the future
YZ: exactly.....
YZ: so make the best out of things
Me: if i aged 50, and still a bachelor

Kinda cheesy, but that is how horrid I feel now. I dun wanna jump the gun... but on the other hand, I wished I was something, someone, somebody else.... who could make just the special someone very happy.

"Last night I tried but I couldn’t sleep
thoughts of you were in my head
I was lonely and I needed you next to me
Life is harder since you left
I never meant to do you wrong
And now all is said and done
I hope you wont be gone too long, Nooo"

-- Lemar

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Anonymous said…
hmmmm....who is the gal this time
7:46 PM
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