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frustrated and moody

DISCLAIMER: This is a long winded RANT.







I am F-R-U-S-T-R-A-T-E-D and M-O-O-D-Y!

Argh. Just came back from a 4 days trip to KL with Bert, Yanzhi and JD. Bought my first ever cue. No brand except for a triangle at the butt base, and a grey cue case with a 9ball logo as its brand.

Saturday night, down with fever. Sore throat, felt pain in the cheek. Suspected gum infection + wisdom tooth causing unneccessary pain.

Sunday, sore throat became inflammatory after a series of profuse coughing, and more pain in the cheek. Blood in phlegm.

Monday, inflammed throat + inflammed gum, cant chew, speak, eat, drink properly.

Tuesday, back to sore throat. Went to Century for the first time since my return, with my new cue and cue case happily. Night was spoilt when i discovered my cue was bent. By impact or by warpage was not immediately clear, but my mood was destroyed. Lent the stick to Brian and saw him breaking with it, my first immediate reaction is to blame him but I calmed down after some while. Feeling really upset over the bent cue shaft.

Wednesday, went to see the dentist. He said wisdom tooth was only partially out, only way of removal would be by a small surgery. My theory of the wisdom tooth pushing the tooth infront of it out, causing pain, was destroyed when he put me on the X-ray. It showed the tooth infront of the wisdom tooth was in fact longer by growth. (What the heck have I been doing all these years without ever realising it!) And the usual, "Your gum condition is not really good" Sigh. No matter how I try to make up for not brushing in the past, it never seems to be enough to any dentists. Oh well.

I also looked up on the web for cue shops around in Sg, and found a few, some in familiar places others not. I wonder if i should try and get my cue fixed or save up and buy a McDermott. I will not buy anymore cue to replace this cue, still feeling very noobish about cue care, no point wasting money for now.

So annoying. Everything I buy something pricey and new for the first time, it will turn out wrong one way or the other. New comp, 1st servicing within 1 week of delivery. 1st pair of soccer boots, lost on the MRT after only the 2nd outing. New pool cue, discovered bent after only first outing. It's almost like all my fault yet I'm so helpless to try and rectify it. I'm really pissed with myself.

Friday going back to base to collect BMT Barang Barang. A little worried about going in for BMT next friday. The plan to try and exercise myself to slightly more fitness didn't really materialise. (Welcome to my world of Laziness.)

Overhaul. That's what I need. I'm too deep into the dumps.

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