GABBEH!!™

Sigh.. another sunday evening, time to book into camp soon (in approximately 2 hours + time?) Had a good wkend with darling, but tt's abt it, nothing much to look forward to at work. Especially with a Duty on next Saturday. Sighs. That practically means I will only get to sleep at home once nxt wkend. Good thing, POC is steaming at cruising speed already, 1 month has passed. My next posting doesnt seem to be any clearer than 1 month ago. -Sigh- It's not a good post when you see me punctuating with Sighs... Shingz... -haha- I wish.. i wish.. i wish.. I was Truman from Jim Carrey's The Truman Show. Lived 30 yrs of existance only to realise that I'm actually born into a movie world. If only I could find the exit door at this moment of my life. I want out of this job. I want a normal civilian life back, I want to have the freedom of staying at home on weekends. I don't want to be away from my loved ones. I don't want... I don't want... I don't want... Where

Back after a really long time... at a time when I feel slightly detached from the rest of the world (maybe its just that I didnt leave house for slightly over 1 day)... The year 2009 have been better than 2008... career-wise, relationship-wise... however, I feel that I grown apart from my old friends, and not so prompt at making new 1s. =\ It's this overpowering feeling that got me to turn to this fairly old blog of mine. It's a good thing Blogger doesn't remove any blogs, if not I would not have this little space of mine on the net after so long.. Let's recap.. It's my 3rd year of service in the Navy, and I felt I have came a long way. I grown into my role onboard the Ship, gaining respect from top and peers alike with the way I have gone about doing my work and asserting my presence, on a personal note, I felt it was an achievement. But I still don't feel the urge to stay on once my contract has ended. I feel that I'm still restricted in certain aspects of