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Relocate me somewhere.... ANYWHERE!

Sigh.. another sunday evening, time to book into camp soon (in approximately 2 hours + time?)

Had a good wkend with darling, but tt's abt it, nothing much to look forward to at work. Especially with a Duty on next Saturday. Sighs. That practically means I will only get to sleep at home once nxt wkend.

Good thing, POC is steaming at cruising speed already, 1 month has passed. My next posting doesnt seem to be any clearer than 1 month ago. -Sigh-

It's not a good post when you see me punctuating with Sighs... Shingz... -haha-

I wish.. i wish.. i wish..

I was Truman from Jim Carrey's The Truman Show. Lived 30 yrs of existance only to realise that I'm actually born into a movie world. If only I could find the exit door at this moment of my life. I want out of this job. I want a normal civilian life back, I want to have the freedom of staying at home on weekends. I don't want to be away from my loved ones.

I don't want... I don't want... I don't want...

Where's the Reset button thats supposed to be found on me?
Out.

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