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Miserable.

BANG! Sunday Afternoon! And I'm at home typing this post!

Just came back from lunch. Alone. Another typical moody day. Where's the spark in my life? I'm so far apart from those who are close to me that I don't even know where I belonged anymore.

I just dawned upon another fantasy of mine, and that is... to stay at home 24/7! Haha. I dunwant to see anyone. I dunwant to go out. I dunwant to be bothered with school, projects and other stuffs. I just wanna be home, safe from the rain, problems, Sun, and just about everything else.

I just dunno what else I could do to feel better. I'm refusing to leave the house since soccer outing yesterday. Friends asked me to go pool today, I turn down. Dad asked me to go for breakfast in the morning.. at first I said yes.. later I said "No, I need a rest". I just wanna be left alone, yet I want to be with somebody. I'm afraid I will go all bonkers.

I feel like the homeless. Unwanted. Unloved. Despised. Maybe I just want myself to think that way.

I bought Ruffles chips, M&M peanuts & a bottle of MUG root beer on my way home... I guess the best way for me to get about this stupid dip is to munch my way out. Haha. Looping Akon - Lonely on my computer... it's probably the best way to spend my lazy Sunday afternoon at the moment.

I just hope I won't have to wait long for this bad, bad, down-trodden feeling to pass. I will come back a stronger person. No doubt about it. I just hope that I would be back to my bubbly self soon.

My world just crashed, and I'm picking up the pieces.

"Don't just sit there and look. Give me a hand, would you?"

BANG!

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