GABBEH!!™

Oh dear. Where do i begin? It's been 6 years since my last post. Here I am back on this personal space of mine. A Husband. A Father. A Manager. New Home. New Work Responsibilities. New Commitments. Lost Mum. Lost Soul. Lost Health. I read somewhere this morning one of the ways to start looking after yourself better is to write. Lazy to write, so i figured typing would be the next best thing, so here I am. Lets start with things I am grateful for:- - My small family with a beautiful wife and handsome kid. - Stable job, and comfortable. - A roof over my head that i can call my own. - Being able to be alive and witness the current phase in life. oh gosh. So much I want to say, but just can't find the right words. 19 minutes to start of Work. -Gab

I have left the Navy after 6 years. Joined STE, and STILL in TNB. I'm getting the BTO flat in 1 1/2 years time. I'm getting married.... hopefully in the same period. and I'm worried about finances. I have made some right decisions and some very wrong decisions in my life. Most of the latter decisions are pretty recent. I want to set the record straight. From now on, I will strive and ONLY make right decisions in my life. I want to live my life and everyone else in my life to live off the right decisions that I made. Can't disappoint others due to my own failings End "As I grow older, the more we have to abide by life's rules, and came to the realisation that I am just another lab rat participating in the rat race just like everyone else."

H ello everyone... First of all, I like to wish everyone a Happy New 2011! Been quite some time since I updated this blog of mine. (This is how I always start my post, I realised) Alot has happened in the year 2010... Me and Darling into year number 5... I swapped Brave for Valiant... Arsenal trophy drought into year number 5 (I just hafta mention that haha)... I'm 24 going on mid-20s... 4th year in the Navy... 12/10 with Bert & Hardi and 10 years with Leong... Got myself my first ever non-Nokia phone: a Blackberry... trip to Phuket... Struck my first ever Toto prize... Flew (or tried to) a kite first time ever... a cycling trip to Ubin despite being unable to cycle (thanks to Dean)... topped the Petty Officers' course... Not too many memorable things however though. But there's always 2011... the year before the disaster year of 2012! (hopefully things turns out well) Tony asked me earlier what are my Resolutions for the year 2011, and I realised I have not thought of ...

Sigh.. another sunday evening, time to book into camp soon (in approximately 2 hours + time?) Had a good wkend with darling, but tt's abt it, nothing much to look forward to at work. Especially with a Duty on next Saturday. Sighs. That practically means I will only get to sleep at home once nxt wkend. Good thing, POC is steaming at cruising speed already, 1 month has passed. My next posting doesnt seem to be any clearer than 1 month ago. -Sigh- It's not a good post when you see me punctuating with Sighs... Shingz... -haha- I wish.. i wish.. i wish.. I was Truman from Jim Carrey's The Truman Show. Lived 30 yrs of existance only to realise that I'm actually born into a movie world. If only I could find the exit door at this moment of my life. I want out of this job. I want a normal civilian life back, I want to have the freedom of staying at home on weekends. I don't want to be away from my loved ones. I don't want... I don't want... I don't want... Where...

Back after a really long time... at a time when I feel slightly detached from the rest of the world (maybe its just that I didnt leave house for slightly over 1 day)... The year 2009 have been better than 2008... career-wise, relationship-wise... however, I feel that I grown apart from my old friends, and not so prompt at making new 1s. =\ It's this overpowering feeling that got me to turn to this fairly old blog of mine. It's a good thing Blogger doesn't remove any blogs, if not I would not have this little space of mine on the net after so long.. Let's recap.. It's my 3rd year of service in the Navy, and I felt I have came a long way. I grown into my role onboard the Ship, gaining respect from top and peers alike with the way I have gone about doing my work and asserting my presence, on a personal note, I felt it was an achievement. But I still don't feel the urge to stay on once my contract has ended. I feel that I'm still restricted in certain aspects of...

Just been hearing this song from the old serial show at 11pm... haha.. by Emil Chau. :) Enjoy. Lovely lovely lovely LOVELY song.

Guitar Hero 3's Credit / Hardest song Lyrics don't make much sense at times, but its still good on the ear. Keep your speakers volume in check, its rather loud. --Through The Fire and Flames-- On a cold winter morning, in the time before the light, In flames of death's eternal reign, we ride towards the fight. When the darkness has fallen down, and the times are tough all right. The sound of evil laughter falls around the world tonight. Fighting hard, fighting on for the steel, through the wastelands evermore, The scattered souls will feel the hell, bodies wasted on the shore. On the blackest plains in Hell's domain, we watch them as they go, Through fire and pain, and once again we know... So now we're flying we're free, we're free before the thunderstorm, On towards the wilderness, our quest carries on. Far beyond the sundown, far beyond the moonlight, Deep inside our hearts and all our souls... So far away we wait for the day, For the lights all so wasted...

AhhH! Long time since my last post. In the process of getting my Bonus (wee) and gotten the Wii way before it (Bonus) arrived. Been sailing and sailing. Its been longer now since saM went missing. IPPT workyear has just started, along with the BMI taken into consideration (oops i fail BMI) Feeling excited this year as the Ship going Tioman and Sattahip for exercises. And speaking of exercises, been thinking of starting on some myself. Most of my peers are going to ORD soon, so CONGRATULATIONS! Jack went on Thailand/Cambodia backpacking trip for 20 days... Andrea went Taipei for 17... Wondering when I could go on a trip myself like the 2 of them (-Envies-) Thinking of clearing leave in May and probably June, October - December... got 30 over days available. Anyone got anything on for me? (Haha) Feeling monotone and disinterested which is just like this post itself, so I SHALL END IT HERE! BYE!

"6!" that bugger of a PTI exclaimed. With that, all my agony, all my despair, all my worries, all the pent up emotions down the drain! I FINALLY PASSED MY IPPT!!!!! Coupled it with my QM pass, i finally overcame the obstacles! HOORAY!

finally. A NEW PRINTER. *insert ANY emoticon* Now onto the digital camera im eyeing...

V-hive chair... $495... Feel Dumb... For lower back... Feel poorer...

In loving memory of BitBit (1997 - 2007) End of a phase of life... My pet bunny left for greener pastures the night before. So long, Bitbit. =] Am sorry was not able to be by your side during your final hours. Wherever you are now, I hope your happier than you were during the final days. You are no longer suffering at least. May someone else up there take better care of you. =]

QM and IPPT. The biggest obstacle that stands between me and total happiness onboard. Can I overcome it!? Sigh. Watch this space...

So. Its 10th of August. Just reached home from work. I spent the 8th and 9th nearer to a lighthouse than my home. All the pounding and rolling has probably gotten to me. See the happy faces of everyone celebrating on the teevee rubbed it in. Is this jealousy? Or is it immaturity? Oh well. Does it matter? rantsssssssssss.

F inally. I'm going 21. Here's the problem. Everyone else is turning 21. And everyones inviting everybody to their 21 yr old birthday parties. I doubt I will get to hold a party of my own. Oh well. That's actually part of the problem. I hate my job. It's eating into my social life, so much so I think I don't have one now. So far, I have missed my Cousin's wedding, a few of my secondary school friend's 21st birthday party, a few secondary sch friend's gathering such as festive season celebrations. Its down to the darn schedule. And I'm about to tell two more of my friend that I might not be able to go to their parties due to work. Ugh. I hardly have time for my belle too. All my weekend pool outings have dried up. Can someone tell me how to get my social life back? Or am I too resigned (perhaps, lazy?) to do anything about the harsh fact. It's a Sunday, and I only reached back home from work just in the afternoon. Tomorrow I'm going to wo...

Look in your eyes I see a new story, I can't deny my past ent perfect too, Singin, I'm not here to get false answers But just like you I got true questions too (yeah) I never wanna let you go, In ya eyes I can tell that is what we both know, I neva wanna see you cry, Or love so burn baby let it die, (Baby, Baby, Baby) [Chorus] I wanted you to go your way, I wanted me to go mine, I, sittin here thinking, Passing good time, I wanted you to go your way, I wanted me to go mine, I never thought you'd say, Baby goodbye Hearin your voice just makes me remember, All those times when we were nothing more than friends, I knew you, you knew me, and everything was plain to see, How did I let us get so deep? I never wanna let you go, In ya eyes I can tell that is what we both know, I neva wanna see you cry, Or love so burn baby let it die, (Baby, Baby, Baby) [Chorus] I wanted you to go your way, I wanted me to go mine, I, sittin here thinking, Passing good time, I wanted you to go your ...

I had an compulsion to pour out everything I felt at this moment in time. I am so sorry for spoiling your day yesterday. I given my explanation but I maybe didnt reveal my feelings too much. I truly adore you. I LOVE YOU. I remember worrying about you every single day when we are apart. I panic whenever you fail to reply my SMS-es immediately. When you were down, I felt my day went bad as well. When I am down, you did your best to raise my spirits, giving a shoulder for me to rest on. The times when we waited for each other to come home; come online; calls from each other... The times you held my hand and you said you wanna bring them home with you... I missed the walks we had down the river, the jogs we had down the beach, the books we read together in the libraries, the movies we watched together in the cinemas, the stroll in the parks, the clueless wandering of places where we didn't plan, the meals we had together, the time we spent looking into each other's eyes, the litt...

I'm going to Tuas tomorrow with mixed emotions but this song shall stand me in good stead... Bon Jovi - Welcome To Wherever You Are Maybe we're all different But we're still the same We all got the blood of Eden running through our veins I know sometimes it's hard for you to see You're caught between just who you are and who you want to be If you feel alone and lost and need a friend Remember every new beginning is some beginning's end Welcome to wherever you are This is your life; you made it this far Welcome, you got to believe That right here, right now you're exactly where you're supposed to be Welcome to wherever you are When everybody's in and you're left out And you feel you're drowning in the shadow of a doubt Everyone's a miracle in their own way Just listen to yourself, not what other people say When it seems you're lost, alone and feelin' down Remember, everybody's different; just take a look around Welcome to where...