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Thoughts...

Another restless day. Another day spent in loneliness. Another day of wild imagination.

Can I just not be Myself for a day?

It's been hard. What is this? Heard you ain't got a girlfriend.

Yea. So? When are you getting one?

I wished I knew the answer. That is sad.

I'm getting desperate. Trouble is, I'm letting the whole world know about it. Haha. Foolish thoughts stashed in my brain all day, just like the dollar bills neatly arranged in those briefcases we see in the movies.

Question: Do you like being Single?
Answer: Yea, I do. -BUT- I rather come in a pair. 2 heads are better than 1.

Take my brain out from my skull now, its most probably fried. I can't think of anything else. I can't concentrate. I'm just reading books furiously, seeking refuge in another world, cos I am so afraid to face reality. Looking at the time I spent on books each day, you would have thought I ate books for lunch for the past 19 years of my life.

Whatever that's up there... I beg you please... Bring her to me. I'll give anything. (Now..havent we heard that countless times in the movies?) Sheesh.

Question: Why am I so worried that I would end up Single?
Answer: I'm scared i would be a stale middle aged man of 30 years who failed to enjoy his life thoroughly during the 20s, the supposedly most vibrant or in other words, most happening period of life ... all this because of you-know-what laa.. Sigh.

Am I'm worrying too much? Am I missing out on alot of stuffs? Things like Partying, Clubbing, all the things that a teenager in Sg shld do...?

I don't want to be a loner ahh... Only child. Only 1 from pri sch to come to my sec sch class. Only 1 from my sec sch to come into my poly class. Only 1 from my yr 1, yr 2 poly class to my yr 3 poly class. Only 1 to sign on for you-know-what. Its been a trend. It STILL is a trend. I don't want it to carry on. Someone rescue me from such a pattern...

I think for now... the chances of Hitler & Stalin -BOTH- seated snugly in my living room chatting seems to be higher than me getting hitched... It really seems that way and it kinda hurt. Big. Time. for Old Sissy Me.

Freak ah.... Gabbeh became a freak liao...

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